i thought i was over it you know, i thought after i reported him i would move on. i was stupid to think that. of course i won't get over it, it was rape for godsake. the one thing you can never get over the one thing you won't forget. i try not to think or speak about it but the past few days have been hard, it's been stuck in my mind playing over and over again. even when the one year passed i wasn't sad, i was happy i made it out but why am i upset about it now? i have no idea. i just hope that one day i'll get my revenge.no one will ever undertsand what it's like. how bad i feel. when you get raped your whole life is changed you may not notice it at first, i didn't but when you do nothing is ever the same. you can't look at men the same let alone people, everyone is hiding something now its more noticable. that evilness will always live in him even if he tries his hardest to hide it, it will sneak out day by day until it consumes him like the rape consumes me.
lorena gallo
the rape of persephone by christoph schwarz

i know he knows im right, theres no hiding what he did that day. he can pretend as much as he wants that it wasn't rape but its so obvious it was, and he knows it. he heard me screaming stop and covered my mouth yet never brings that up when the rape is mentioned, all he says is that i wanted it and that it was all consensual. he even says i sexually assaulted him when in turn it was him every time. he knows it too. me crying when he shoved his dick down my throat, him beating me up for no reason. he knows all these things he did to me yet never mentions it because he knows it'll make him look bad. he's trying his hardest to make me seem like the bad guy here, yes i do admit i was insane i always have been but that doesn't excuse what hes doing to me and what he did to me. i played along with his games, i followed his rules, i became his slave. i find it difficult to think about that time period, none of it feels real, it just felt like i was apart of some experiment. he says he treated me this way to get rid of me but he was doing this from the day he texted me. he wanted me to be disgusting and worthless and he succeeded in doing so because now i get reduced to the things i did for him.