almost a year later and i still don't fully know why im so attracted to piss. i just am, its most likely because of O, hes the one who introduced me to it. i've always liked the feeling of a full bladder and the release of it but that "good feeling" increased if i pissed myself or peed outside. the feeling of releasing something private in public just felt so good, it was exhilarating knowing anyone can catch you. i've done a lot of things with piss my own and others, i like engaging with others the most. i like how warm it is when it hits my face and just how disgusting i smell and look. i love how they look at me with such disgust and seeing me like a pathetic dog. i do feel like a dog when i piss myself, i feel embarrassed but that turns me on, seeing dogs piss (at least my own) they always look so ashamed of it which is exactly how i feel. i've talked to my therapist about it and she says its normal to have this kink. recently a picture of me pissing myself was leaked and i felt a way i never felt before i felt so much worse than i did when i actually pissed myself in a public park. knowing that picture is still there and hundreds of people see it and see my face and have thoughts about it makes me less ashamed of doing certain things, though of course i still am ashamed that it got leaked and it is embarrassing but it is what it is right? im not hurting anyone by it and sure i do feel shame afterwards but nothing can beat the pleasure of pissing myself and having my underwear soaked with the warmness. i know to a lot of people this is disgusting, with the guys ive dated 2 of them were into it, so being with them and sharing that side of myself made me feel less alone. i know there are people like me out there and that makes me feel better too.

i also enjoy watching men piss either next to them or on video, i like how they struggle to piss with one hand and it getting on the seat, just knowing how much they are struggling to keep a straight stream. i wanna stick my tongue out to catch it, feel it splash over me making me disgusting and wet