we are currently having a heat wave right now in my city, it's 12:03pm and 34 degress (Celsius) outside for now. sadly my apartment does not have AC. i really do not know why. i do have my window open only for fresh air, i feel if i close it i will suffocate. it's getting up to 36 later. it's canada day but i don't celebrate. also too hot to go outside and enjoy it. the weather says the air quailty is a 3 which is a low health risk but apparently is ideal for outdoor activities, take that as you will. i am not going outside until i have to. the heat brings out the crazies. i have no clue where i first heard it but it is true. everyone goes insane when the heat rises, you can feel it. people get more on edge and are easier to upset. they blame it on the heat. but no matter what the temperature is you can't use it as an excuse to treat me like shit. something upsetting happened yesterday, the beginning of this heat wave. she used me. i know it was only 9 days but god i fucking feel empty. not only did i get hurt, but i hurt him. which is so much worse. i think i have finally learned my lesson. i want to relapse more than anything.